That’s me, today. The feeling has waxed and waned from a bursting, can’t hold it in kind of elation, to a quiet kind of joy – the kind that’s just about to manifest a physical smile, reflecting of the internal smile that’s been nudging at me all day long.
After a rocky couple of weeks, this deep sense of inner peace has been such sweet relief. Where did it come from?
I know, you’ve heard it a million times before…Be present, be mindful… But are you really doing it?
For the last 2 weeks, I know I wasn’t. Not all the time, anyway. I was trying, I was still meditating…
But I had a lot going on. As we all do, all the time. I’m in a kind of limbo period – my place of residence may be changing…or maybe not. It’s pretty up in the air at this point, and is mainly my decision (scary!) This topic has taken my mind hostage – up until today, there wasn’t a single moment that it didn’t fill every crevice of my mind.
So when I was filing papers, making phone calls, reading a book, or working out, I wasn’t just doing those things – I was also worrying about the decision. And causing myself massive, stomach-turning bouts of anxiety.
Fast forward to today…Do I have any less going on? Definitely not. I’m just choosing to handle the situation differently.
Thinking this decision to death isn’t going to make my choosing any easier. You know what will? A peaceful state of mind. So today, instead of fretting, I was present. Above and beyond my morning meditation presence, today, I am SUPER present.
Each task has my full attention, each person gets both of my ears, and each moment my full appreciation. And guess what? No anxiety – none, nada, zip, zero – for the first time in a few weeks.
I still have stuff goin’ on. The decision is still waiting to be made. But instead of being filled with tension and worry, I’m radiating peace, love and joy. It’s a much better place to be.
What could happen in your life if you chose to be present for all of it? How would you feel? There’s only one way to find out…
Sending positive, peaceful energy your way.
Peace, love and a steaming cup of Zen,